Even if I had the time, it is so hard for me to just sit still, relax, and shut off my mind. I just can't justify doing that. I can always come up with about a thousand other things I should be doing!
This fast-paced blog world isn't much different. It's so easy to feel like you are falling behind. Did I talk to enough people on Twitter today? Did I share enough content on Facebook? Did I engage with enough people on Instagram? Did I read enough blogs? Did I produce a pin-worthy blog post? Did I pin enough content? Did I reply to comments and emails? Did I spend enough time promoting my own posts? It really is like a job most days. And if you're not careful, blog life WILL consume you!
What I've learned over the years is that sometimes it's very healthy to step away for a day or two (or a few) and just say, ENOUGH!
In addition to raising four kids, maintaining a blog, and coordinating the schedules for my kids last week, I had two big volunteer projects to work on. I love blogging and I love my volunteer work, but by the end of the week, I was completely spent. All I wanted to do was forget about everything but spending time with my family, but the weekend busyness took over. And I was CRANKY. Before I knew it, it was Monday.
That crankiness continued into this morning. Mondays are always incredibly busy, but this week, Liam didn't have his usual OT session or speech session. I had big plans to work on blog projects, but by 10:30 AM, I gave up. I shut my laptop, hid my cell phone, and decided to enjoy the sunny, 80 degree day with my kids!
Liam and I went to the store to buy unhealthy prepared food (I'm keeping it real here), we picked Lily up from school, and we headed to the local park for a picnic! I left my phone in the car, snapped a few pictures of my kids, then chased them around until they slowed down. (If I'm going to be honest, it was until *I* slowed down. Where do they get their energy and can I have some?!?)
After a few hours in the hot sun, Lily and Liam were tired! We gathered up our stuff and headed back home. My horrible mood was magically cured, Liam quickly fell asleep in the car, and Lily fell asleep right after we got home.
With two kids sleeping, I could accomplish SO much. Only...I didn't. For once, I allowed myself to just sit down and enjoy the silence.
The silence was short-lived, because soon, Dylan and Lexie arrived home from school! And once again, I pushed everything I had to do aside, and just spent time with them in the backyard until Grant got home from work! (And my goodness, does our swingset need stained, or what? Let me just add that project to our mile-long To Do list!)
After dinner and Family Movie Night, I dropped off Lily and Liam off for a sleepover (I'm going on a field trip with Dylan tomorrow), then came home and spent the night hanging out with my husband. No chores (outside of the norm), no blog work, no commitments. And tonight, when I returned to my computer, I was actually looking forward to going through pictures and writing!
I never allow myself time to relax, and the stress of blogging and volunteer work and maintaining all these schedules can really get to me. Taking time for ME today and just spending time with my family was so refreshing! It was EXACTLY what I needed to do, and it's exactly what I need to do more often!
How do you make time for yourself and how do you banish the guilt when you do?